At this point, I don't care! I keep hearing how I am going to hate all my excess skin when this is over. Ya know, I probably will! Why? You would think that fat would be a lot worse to look at than excess skin right? The lumps and the bumps, and all the floral curtains they make for obese women to wear. So excess skin? What's the big deal?
I will hate it because we are awful to ourselves. We are so critical. Cruel in fact. We can be happy and encouraging to everyone around us, but when it comes to our own selves, We are hideous monsters! So will I hate the way I look? Maybe. Probably. Yes. But I am vowing right now, to work hard. Work hard on loving myself. For the first time in a long time. I will fight that mean me, and love and be proud of all that I am accomplishing. I will love myself! That self doubt will come. The self criticism and loathing, but I need to remember, and you should REMIND me,
Gabrielle! Stop! You are awesome!
And besides, I have seen what that excess removal surgery looks like...I have already had a jp drain in me for 4 months of my life. I am not about to let someone put another one in me! No thank you!
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