Rapid weight loss is super fun. Well, actually, its not really fun at all. Its a head game, like I have mentioned before, you have so many self esteem issues, SO MANY, and to help in that department, you also have hair loss! You would not believe the way I shed! Its nothing, and I mean ABSOLUTELY nothing like the hair loss you experience after you have a baby! In fact, if I was not blessed with a huge amount of hair, you would be able to see my scalp through my hair at this point. Many people that I have found in on-line support groups have basically chopped off their hair, because its so terribly thin. again, I am blessed to have my mother's hair, and lots of it, so now my ponytail is about a nickle around instead of lemon sized.
I am not really complaining. I am just stating this as a fact. I do hate all the shedding. I have hair everywhere, and new baby hair sticking up all over the place. The thing I do complain about, and I mean A LOT, is how cold and freezing I am ALL OF THE TIME! I swear I violently shake half my day long! I was never a cold girl before! I could survive all winter, without a coat, in the tundra of Northern Utah, kept warm by own brand of insulation. But now, every pound that comes off of me, leaves me colder than the pound before! I get in bed at night, under 4-5 blankets. No LIE! My poor husband...I spent years training him to enjoy sleeping in a nice cool room. Now his wife wants the heat on. All the time, and as high as anyone can stand it. When we drive, he is always turning the heat down until I am shivering again, and then takes one for the team while I warm back up and he swelters!
Another strange thing about Rapid weight loss are my shoes. My feet did not grow as I became fat. They became wider. So in order to accommodate the foot, I would either buy wide width shoes, or the next size up. (you know this to be true...right?) Yesterday as I was getting ready for church, I put on 3 different pairs of shoes. and as I tried to walk in them, walked right out of them. So yes. I need to also buy new shoes. That is not at all inconvenient.
But these obnoxious things do not bother me too much. Because each day I am reminded why I did this. I feel so much better. I can do so many more things. My 4 year old loves to play with me. When I pray for guidance, the Lord hears and answers my prayers. He also touches my heart, with a warm feeling of acknowledgment, when I thank my Father in Heaven for the love and support and the courage to fight my food battles each day. My life is sweet, and I am grateful that I am still living it.
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