Confession: Its all about my new life. But today, I win the scale!
It has been an awful week. My family said goodbye to the best man. One of my very favorite people in the world. My sweet Father-in-Law passed from this life to begin his eternities, and while we rejoice for him, we miss him already. I have been an emotional wreck, and watching the man I love mourn his very best friend, has been very hard. BUT - I want to talk about my journey. Some of those feelings are too close right now.
For me, emotional wreck means eating. Food is such a comfort! I could down much chocolaty goodness during a hard time, and go and go, and spiral down to full blown addiction mode.
I have been changing my habits much, but I will be so honest, I had a small piece of cake. Some taffy there, a bite of chocolate here and here. I am still the addict. I know this. I focused on healthy meals. Its the in between that I struggled with.
I did well however. I had a few slips, but I do not feel sucked back in. I feel like I am still in control, which is a wonderful feeling! I am hanging in there!
But because of my slips and "bad behavior" I thought I had better take the plunge, weigh myself, see the damage...I have not weighed in about a week, and I had been hovering for a week or 2 at 203-201 lbs. I was nervous. Imagine my surprise! For the first time in over 20 years- I weigh less than 200 pounds!
ONEDERLAND baby!!
I am so happy- I can barely keep it in! My goal was to be at this weight by June 18th! I DID IT! I am elated! I needed this, this hard week. This is a scale victory for sure!
However, usually its about the non-scale victories. I love how I feel, my energy, my accomplished feeling, and my ability to do the things I need to, and WANT to. Don't focus on the scale. You are MORE than the scale.
I AM MORE than the scale!
(But today, we might just be bestest friends!)